A Life Beyond Now..

I wonder at my travails and perils,
At my existence, at my core.
I resemble it all, I am like none of it;
All ways lead there, nothing takes me home.

So I wonder, amazed at the symmetry;
I wonder at the silence, awed by its gravity.
Nothing feels quite enough, everything fades away;
Anything I touch melds into me, eating away at my soul.

Pain is a cage, happiness it's prisoner.
Life is possible in complete misery,
Or complete bliss.
Never somewhere in the middle, never somewhere too far.

And so I labour on,
Hoping to find me one day;
And hold on tight, never let go,
Until no arrows can find me anymore.